To my hero. (2011.06.11)

I guess it happens to the best of us,
we don't learn the rules but we play the game
sit around, question self, figure we're the ones to blame
and it's a shame
when I think about it, all my life I've gotten hurt
by other people, to make it worse
I push myself into the dirt
to try and hide behind the pain
and turn my heart ice cold -
mask emotions and create emptiness in my soul

Could it be
that what felt so right at first could go wrong,
just a painful memory, lyrics to add to a sad song
what's a heart that's broken
from a love too strong,
just a cut too deep, a line too long
to finally escape and be free
and let love lead the way
if not tomorrow or the next... maybe someday,
could it be?

I've made the mistake
of not following my heart
and letting my mind tell me what's best
as from within, I fall apart
and leave the pieces to be found
for someone willing to put them back together,
to be my sunshine after stormy weather
the first thing I smile about early in the day
and what else could make me feel this good as I lay awake,
or is that another mistake?

For once, I've found in myself
a reason of being, the ability
to spread my wings
like an eagle, and fly free
escape my fears and just be
who I was meant to, me..
you're an inspiring soul
and not because you're perfect,
but because you made me realize
that love is right, and you're worth it.

When God closes one door...

...suddenly all the doors fly open.

I'm not sure what brings certain people back into my life, but it's like meeting the Christmas spirits. They're all vague as CSI suspects and they never seem to want to explain themselves.

And why not?

Spirits of my crazy life, explain yourselves.