What is that supposed to mean?
Obviously, it means pursue your educational goals. At least, that's what I think.
No one ever explains why either.
Every adult or figure of authority will tell you during your youthful years (at some point), the most important thing you'll ever hear is to "stay in school".
So here's why I think that is actually important...
2012-12-22
2012-11-30
What Your Acne Says About You
The image below is a face map. Each number represents a different zone you should draw your attention to, in terms of eating habits or exercise routines, in order to ensure your body is functioning at its best:
1 & 2: Digestive System —Eat less processed or junk food, reduce the amount of fat in your diet, step up water intake and opt for cooling things like cucumbers.
3: Liver —Cut out the alcohol, greasy food and dairy. This is the zone where food allergies also show up first, so take a look at your ingredients. Besides all this, do 30 minutes of light exercise every day and get adequate sleep so your liver can rest.
4 & 5: Kidneys —Anything around the eyes (including dark circles) point to dehydration. Drink up!
6: Heart —Check your blood pressure (mine was slightly high) and Vitamin B levels. Decrease the intake of spicy or pungent food, cut down on meat and get more fresh air. Besides this, look into ways to lower cholesterol, like replacing “bad fats” with “good fats” such as Omegas 3 and 6 found in nuts, avocados, fish and flax seed. Also, since this area is chock-full of dilated pores, check that your makeup is not past its expiry date or is skin-clogging.
7 & 8: Kidneys —Again, drink up! And cut down on aerated drinks, coffee and alcohol as these will cause further dehydration.
9 & 10: Respiratory system —Do you smoke? Have allergies? This is your problem area for both. If neither of these is the issue, don’t let your body overheat, eat more cooling foods, cut down on sugar and get more fresh air. Also keep the body more alkaline by avoiding foods that make the body acidic (meat, dairy, alcohol, caffeine, sugar) and adding more alkalizing foods like green veggies and wheatgrass juice. Another thing that most of forget –dirty cell phones and pillow cases are two of the top acne culprits and this area is what they affect the most!
11 & 12: Hormones —This is the signature zone for stress and hormonal changes. And while both are sometimes unavoidable, you can decrease their effect by getting adequate sleep, drinking enough water, eating leafy veggies and keeping skin scrupulously clean. Another interesting point: breakouts in this area indicate when you are ovulating (and on which side).
13: Stomach —Step up the fibre intake, reduce the toxin overload and drink herbal teas to help with digestion.
14: Illness —Zits here can be a sign that your body is fighting bacteria to avoid illness. Give it a break, take a yoga class, take a nap, take time to breathe deeply, drink plenty of water and know that everything always works out!
So the next time you break out or notice dark under-eye circles, look to your face map: your skin is probably trying to communicate on behalf of the internal organs. However, do remember that, as with all medical issues, it is always best to see your doctor or dermatologist for a proper prognosis. This is just a general guide to head you off in the right investigative direction – just because you break out between the brows doesn’t always mean you have a bad liver!
2012-10-03
Seeing Through Different Lenses
I couldn't see you the way you wanted me to.
And now I'm seeing myself the way I never could.
And now I'm seeing myself the way I never could.
2012-08-17
To my hero. (2011.06.11)
I guess it happens to the best of us,
we don't learn the rules but we play the game
sit around, question self, figure we're the ones to blame
and it's a shame
when I think about it, all my life I've gotten hurt
by other people, to make it worse
I push myself into the dirt
to try and hide behind the pain
and turn my heart ice cold -
mask emotions and create emptiness in my soul
Could it be
that what felt so right at first could go wrong,
just a painful memory, lyrics to add to a sad song
what's a heart that's broken
from a love too strong,
just a cut too deep, a line too long
to finally escape and be free
and let love lead the way
if not tomorrow or the next... maybe someday,
could it be?
I've made the mistake
of not following my heart
and letting my mind tell me what's best
as from within, I fall apart
and leave the pieces to be found
for someone willing to put them back together,
to be my sunshine after stormy weather
the first thing I smile about early in the day
and what else could make me feel this good as I lay awake,
or is that another mistake?
For once, I've found in myself
a reason of being, the ability
to spread my wings
like an eagle, and fly free
escape my fears and just be
who I was meant to, me..
you're an inspiring soul
and not because you're perfect,
but because you made me realize
that love is right, and you're worth it.
we don't learn the rules but we play the game
sit around, question self, figure we're the ones to blame
and it's a shame
when I think about it, all my life I've gotten hurt
by other people, to make it worse
I push myself into the dirt
to try and hide behind the pain
and turn my heart ice cold -
mask emotions and create emptiness in my soul
Could it be
that what felt so right at first could go wrong,
just a painful memory, lyrics to add to a sad song
what's a heart that's broken
from a love too strong,
just a cut too deep, a line too long
to finally escape and be free
and let love lead the way
if not tomorrow or the next... maybe someday,
could it be?
I've made the mistake
of not following my heart
and letting my mind tell me what's best
as from within, I fall apart
and leave the pieces to be found
for someone willing to put them back together,
to be my sunshine after stormy weather
the first thing I smile about early in the day
and what else could make me feel this good as I lay awake,
or is that another mistake?
For once, I've found in myself
a reason of being, the ability
to spread my wings
like an eagle, and fly free
escape my fears and just be
who I was meant to, me..
you're an inspiring soul
and not because you're perfect,
but because you made me realize
that love is right, and you're worth it.
2012-08-09
When God closes one door...
...suddenly all the doors fly open.
I'm not sure what brings certain people back into my life, but it's like meeting the Christmas spirits. They're all vague as CSI suspects and they never seem to want to explain themselves.
And why not?
Spirits of my crazy life, explain yourselves.
I'm not sure what brings certain people back into my life, but it's like meeting the Christmas spirits. They're all vague as CSI suspects and they never seem to want to explain themselves.
And why not?
Spirits of my crazy life, explain yourselves.
2012-07-05
Things you wish you'd realized sooner.
The one good thing that comes as a result of death is the increasing value of life.
Losing a friend is difficult, a dark cloud seems to loom over all our heads - and in the presence of friends, family, and other loved ones... things fall apart.
Losing one friend is painful, but it makes you remember all of the great things that person has given to you in their life.
What losing a friend should do, most importantly, is make you more grateful for the friends that are still with you. Friendship is bigger than one or two disputes, stronger than a few hateful words said in anger, greater than the planets that circle the sun.
Many people have said that friends come and go, and if that is the case, you should make sure every step along that road is a good one.
If anything, death brings us closer together in life. Losing someone dear to you should not influence how close you become with others. You should always make a conscious effort to be close to those you care about before you lose them.
2012-06-18
Maya's University Reading (Bucket) List
Seen on Pinterest, Rory Gilmore's reading list (books mentioned/shown in the Gilmore Girls series). Let's see how this goes! Books in bold have been read.
1984 by George Orwell
A Confederacy of Dunces by John Kennedy Toole
The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn by Mark Twain
Alice in Wonderland by Lewis Carroll
The Amazing Adventures of Kavalier & Clay by Michael Chabon
An American Tragedy by Theodore Dreiser
Angela’s Ashes by Frank McCourt
Anna Karenina by Leo Tolstoy
Anne Frank: The Diary of a Young Girl by Anne Frank
Archidamian War by Donald Kagan
The Art of Fiction by Henry James
The Art of War by Sun Tzu
As I Lay Dying by William Faulkner
Atonement by Ian McEwan
Autobiography of a Face by Lucy Grealy
The Awakening by Kate Chopin
Babe by Dick King-Smith
Backlash: The Undeclared War Against American Women by Susan Faludi
Balzac and the Little Chinese Seamstress by Dai Sijie
Bel Canto by Ann Patchett
The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath
Beloved by Toni Morrison
Beowulf: A New Verse Translation by Seamus Heaney
The Bhagava Gita
The Bielski Brothers: The True Story of Three Men Who Defied the Nazis, Built a Village in the Forest, and Saved 1,200 Jews by Peter Duffy
Bitch in Praise of Difficult Women by Elizabeth Wurtzel
A Bolt from the Blue and Other Essays by Mary McCarthy
Brave New World by Aldous Huxley
Brick Lane by Monica Ali
Bridgadoon by Alan Jay Lerner
Candide by Voltaire
The Canterbury Tales by Chaucer
Carrie by Stephen King
Catch-22 by Joseph Heller
The Catcher in the Rye by J. D. Salinger
Charlotte’s Web by E. B. White
The Children’s Hour by Lillian Hellman
Christine by Stephen King
A Christmas Carol by Charles Dickens
A Clockwork Orange by Anthony Burgess
The Code of the Woosters by P.G. Wodehouse
The Collected Short Stories by Eudora Welty The Collected Stories of Eudora Welty by Eudora Welty
A Comedy of Errors by William Shakespeare
Complete Novels by Dawn Powell
The Complete Poems by Anne Sexton
Complete Stories by Dorothy Parker
A Confederacy of Dunces by John Kennedy Toole
The Count of Monte Cristo by Alexandre Dumas
Cousin Bette by Honoré de Balzac
Crime and Punishment by Fyodor Dostoevsky
The Crimson Petal and the White by Michel Faber
The Crucible by Arthur Miller Cujo by Stephen King
The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time by Mark Haddon
Daughter of Fortune by Isabel Allende
David and Lisa by Dr Theodore Issac Rubin M.D
David Copperfield by Charles Dickens
The Da Vinci Code by Dan Brown
Dead Souls by Nikolai Gogol
Demons by Fyodor Dostoyevsky
Death of a Salesman by Arthur Miller
Deenie by Judy Blume
The Devil in the White City: Murder, Magic, and Madness at the Fair that Changed America by Erik Larson
The Dirt: Confessions of the World’s Most Notorious Rock Band by Tommy Lee, Vince Neil, Mick Mars and Nikki Sixx
The Divine Comedy by Dante
The Divine Secrets of the Ya-Ya Sisterhood by Rebecca Wells
Don Quixote by Cervantes
Driving Miss Daisy by Alfred Uhrv
Dr. Jekyll & Mr. Hyde by Robert Louis Stevenson
Edgar Allan Poe: Complete Tales & Poems by Edgar Allan Poe
Eleanor Roosevelt by Blanche Wiesen Cook
The Electric Kool-Aid Acid Test by Tom Wolfe
Ella Minnow Pea: A Novel in Letters by Mark Dunn
Eloise by Kay Thompson
Emily the Strange by Roger Reger
Emma by Jane Austen
Empire Falls by Richard Russo
Encyclopedia Brown: Boy Detective by Donald J. Sobol
Ethan Frome by Edith Wharton
Ethics by Spinoza
Europe through the Back Door, 2003 by Rick Steves
Eva Luna by Isabel Allende
Everything Is Illuminated by Jonathan Safran Foer
Extravagance by Gary Krist
Fahrenheit 451 by Ray Bradbury
Fahrenheit 9/11 by Michael Moore
The Fall of the Athenian Empire by Donald Kagan
Fat Land: How Americans Became the Fattest People in the World by Greg Critser
Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas by Hunter S. Thompson
The Fellowship of the Ring: Book 1 of The Lord of the Ring by J. R. R. Tolkien
Fiddler on the Roof by Joseph Stein
The Five People You Meet in Heaven by Mitch Albom
Finnegan’s Wake by James Joyce Fletch by Gregory McDonald
Flowers for Algernon by Daniel Keyes
The Fortress of Solitude by Jonathan Lethem
The Fountainhead by Ayn Rand
Frankenstein by Mary Shelley
Franny and Zooey by J. D. Salinger
Freaky Friday by Mary Rodgers
Galapagos by Kurt Vonnegut
Gender Trouble by Judith Butler
George W. Bushism: The Slate Book of the Accidental Wit and Wisdom of our 43rd President by Jacob Weisberg
Gidget by Fredrick Kohner
Girl, Interrupted by Susanna Kaysen
The Gnostic Gospels by Elaine Pagels
The Godfather: Book 1 by Mario Puzo
The God of Small Things by Arundhati Roy
Goldilocks and the Three Bears by Alvin Granowsky
Gone with the Wind by Margaret Mitchell
The Good Soldier by Ford Madox Ford
The Gospel According to Judy Bloom
The Graduate by Charles Webb
The Grapes of Wrath by John Steinbeck
The Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald
Great Expectations by Charles Dickens
The Group by Mary McCarthy
Hamlet by William Shakespeare
Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire by J. K. Rowling
Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone by J. K. Rowling
A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius by Dave Eggers
Heart of Darkness by Joseph Conrad
Helter Skelter: The True Story of the Manson Murders by Vincent Bugliosi and Curt Gentry
Henry IV, part I by William Shakespeare
Henry IV, part II by William Shakespeare
Henry V by William Shakespeare
High Fidelity by Nick Hornby
The History of the Decline and Fall of the Roman Empire by Edward Gibbon
Holidays on Ice: Stories by David Sedaris
The Holy Barbarians by Lawrence Lipton
House of Sand and Fog by Andre Dubus III
The House of the Spirits by Isabel Allende
How to Breathe Underwater by Julie Orringer
How the Grinch Stole Christmas by Dr. Seuss
How the Light Gets in by M. J. Hyland
Howl by Allen Gingsburg
The Hunchback of Notre Dame by Victor Hugo
The Iliad by Homer
I’m with the Band by Pamela des Barres
In Cold Blood by Truman Capote
Inferno by Dante
Inherit the Wind by Jerome Lawrence and Robert E. Lee
Iron Weed by William J. Kennedy
It Takes a Village by Hillary Clinton
Jane Eyre by Charlotte Brontë
The Joy Luck Club by Amy Tan
Julius Caesar by William Shakespeare
The Jumping Frog by Mark Twain
The Jungle by Upton Sinclair
Just a Couple of Days by Tony Vigorito
The Kitchen Boy: A Novel of the Last Tsar by Robert Alexander
Kitchen Confidential: Adventures in the Culinary Underbelly by Anthony Bourdain
The Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini
Lady Chatterleys’ Lover by D. H. Lawrence
The Last Empire: Essays 1992-2000 by Gore Vidal
Leaves of Grass by Walt Whitman
The Legend of Bagger Vance by Steven Pressfield
Less Than Zero by Bret Easton Ellis
Letters to a Young Poet by Rainer Maria Rilke
Lies and the Lying Liars Who Tell Them by Al Franken
Life of Pi by Yann Martel
Little Dorrit by Charles Dickens
The Little Locksmith by Katharine Butler Hathaway
The Little Match Girl by Hans Christian Andersen
Little Women by Louisa May Alcott
Living History by Hillary Rodham Clinton
Lord of the Flies by William Golding
The Lottery: And Other Stories by Shirley Jackson
The Lovely Bones by Alice Sebold
The Love Story by Erich Segal
Macbeth by William Shakespeare
Madame Bovary by Gustave Flaubert
The Manticore by Robertson Davies
Marathon Man by William Goldman
The Master and Margarita by Mikhail Bulgakov
Memoirs of a Dutiful Daughter by Simone de Beauvoir
Memoirs of General W. T. Sherman by William Tecumseh Sherman
Me Talk Pretty One Day by David Sedaris
The Meaning of Consuelo by Judith Ortiz Cofer Mencken’s Chrestomathy by H. R. Mencken
The Merry Wives of Windsor by William Shakespeare
The Metamorphosis by Franz Kafka
Middlesex by Jeffrey Eugenides
The Miracle Worker by William Gibson
Moby Dick by Herman Melville
The Mojo Collection: The Ultimate Music Companion by Jim Irvin
Moliere: A Biography by Hobart Chatfield Taylor
A Monetary History of the United States by Milton Friedman
Monsieur Proust by Celeste Albaret
A Month Of Sundays: Searching For The Spirit And My Sister by Julie Mars
A Moveable Feast by Ernest Hemingway
Mrs. Dalloway by Virginia Woolf
Mutiny on the Bounty by Charles Nordhoff and James Norman Hall
My Lai 4: A Report on the Massacre and Its Aftermath by Seymour M. Hersh
My Life as Author and Editor by H. R. Mencken
My Life in Orange: Growing Up with the Guru by Tim Guest
Myra Waldo’s Travel and Motoring Guide to Europe, 1978 by Myra Waldo
My Sister’s Keeper by Jodi Picoult
The Naked and the Dead by Norman Mailer
The Name of the Rose by Umberto Eco
The Namesake by Jhumpa Lahiri
The Nanny Diaries by Emma McLaughlin
Nervous System: Or, Losing My Mind in Literature by Jan Lars Jensen
New Poems of Emily Dickinson by Emily Dickinson
The New Way Things Work by David Macaulay
Nickel and Dimed by Barbara Ehrenreich
Night by Elie Wiesel
Northanger Abbey by Jane Austen
The Norton Anthology of Theory and Criticism by William E. Cain, Laurie A. Finke, Barbara E. Johnson, John P. McGowan
Novels 1930-1942: Dance Night/Come Back to Sorrento, Turn, Magic Wheel/Angels on Toast/A Time to be Born by Dawn Powell
Notes of a Dirty Old Man by Charles Bukowski
Of Mice and Men by John Steinbeck
Old School by Tobias Wolff
On the Road by Jack Kerouac
One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest by Ken Kesey
One Hundred Years of Solitude by Gabriel Garcia Marquez
The Opposite of Fate: Memories of a Writing Life by Amy Tan
Oracle Night by Paul Auster
Oryx and Crake by Margaret Atwood
Othello by Shakespeare
Our Mutual Friend by Charles Dickens
The Outbreak of the Peloponnesian War by Donald Kagan
Out of Africa by Isac Dineson
The Outsiders by S. E. Hinton
A Passage to India by E.M. Forster
The Peace of Nicias and the Sicilian Expedition by Donald Kagan
The Perks of Being a Wallflower by Stephen Chbosky
Peyton Place by Grace Metalious
The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde
Pigs at the Trough by Arianna Huffington
Pinocchio by Carlo Collodi
Please Kill Me: The Uncensored Oral History of Punk Legs McNeil and Gillian McCain
The Polysyllabic Spree by Nick Hornby
The Portable Dorothy Parker by Dorothy Parker
The Portable Nietzche by Fredrich Nietzche
The Price of Loyalty: George W. Bush, the White House, and the Education of Paul O’Neill by Ron Suskind
Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen
Property by Valerie Martin
Pushkin: A Biography by T. J. Binyon
Pygmalion by George Bernard Shaw
Quattrocento by James Mckean
A Quiet Storm by Rachel Howzell Hall
Rapunzel by Grimm Brothers
The Raven by Edgar Allan Poe
The Razor’s Edge by W. Somerset Maugham
Reading Lolita in Tehran: A Memoir in Books by Azar Nafisi
Rebecca by Daphne du Maurier
Rebecca of Sunnybrook Farm by Kate Douglas Wiggin
The Red Tent by Anita Diamant
Rescuing Patty Hearst: Memories From a Decade Gone Mad by Virginia Holman
The Return of the King: The Lord of the Rings Book 3 by J. R. R. Tolkien
R Is for Ricochet by Sue Grafton Rita Hayworth by Stephen King
Robert’s Rules of Order by Henry Robert
Roman Holiday by Edith Wharton
Romeo and Juliet by William Shakespeare
A Room of One’s Own by Virginia Woolf
A Room with a View by E. M. Forster
Rosemary’s Baby by Ira Levin
Sacred Time by Ursula Hegi
Sanctuary by William Faulkner
Savage Beauty: The Life of Edna St. Vincent Millay by Nancy Milford
Say Goodbye to Daisy Miller by Henry James
The Scarecrow of Oz by Frank L. Baum
The Scarlet Letter by Nathaniel Hawthorne
Seabiscuit: An American Legend by Laura Hillenbrand
The Second Sex by Simone de Beauvoir
The Secret Life of Bees by Sue Monk Kidd
Secrets of the Flesh: A Life of Colette by Judith Thurman
Selected Hotels of Europe Selected Letters of Dawn Powell: 1913-1965 by Dawn Powell
Sense and Sensibility by Jane Austen
A Separate Peace by John Knowles
Several Biographies of Winston Churchill
Sexus by Henry Miller
The Shadow of the Wind by Carlos Ruiz Zafon
Shane by Jack Shaefer
The Shining by Stephen King
Siddhartha by Hermann Hesse
S Is for Silence by Sue Grafton
Slaughter-house Five by Kurt Vonnegut
Small Island by Andrea Levy
Snows of Kilimanjaro by Ernest Hemingway
Snow White and Rose Red by Grimm Brothers
Social Origins of Dictatorship and Democracy: Lord and Peasant in the Making of the Modern World by Barrington Moore
The Song of Names by Norman Lebrecht
Song of the Simple Truth: The Complete Poems of Julia de Burgos by Julia de Burgos
The Song Reader by Lisa Tucker
Songbook by Nick Hornby
The Sonnets by William Shakespeare
Sonnets from the Portuegese by Elizabeth Barrett Browning
Sophie’s Choice by William Styron
The Sound and the Fury by William Faulkner
Speak, Memory by Vladimir Nabokov
Stiff: The Curious Lives of Human Cadavers by Mary Roach
The Story of My Life by Helen Keller
A Streetcar Named Desire by Tennessee Williams
Stuart Little by E. B. White
Sun Also Rises by Ernest Hemingway
Swann’s Way by Marcel Proust
Swimming with Giants: My Encounters with Whales, Dolphins and Seals by Anne Collett
Sybil by Flora Rheta Schreiber
A Tale of Two Cities by Charles Dickens
Tender Is The Night by F. Scott Fitzgerald
Term of Endearment by Larry McMurtry
Time and Again by Jack Finney
The Time Traveler’s Wife by Audrey Niffenegger
To Have and Have Not by Ernest Hemingway
To Kill a Mockingbird by Harper Lee
The Tragedy of Richard III by William Shakespeare
A Tree Grows in Brooklyn by Betty Smith
The Trial by Franz Kafka
The True and Outstanding Adventures of the Hunt Sisters by Elisabeth Robinson
Truth & Beauty: A Friendship by Ann Patchett
Tuesdays with Morrie by Mitch Albom
Ulysses by James Joyce
The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath 1950-1962 by Sylvia Plath
Uncle Tom’s Cabin by Harriet Beecher Stowe
Unless by Carol Shields
Valley of the Dolls by Jacqueline Susann
The Vanishing Newspaper by Philip Meyers
Vanity Fair by William Makepeace Thackeray
Velvet Underground’s The Velvet Underground and Nico (Thirty Three and a Third series) by Joe Harvard
The Virgin Suicides by Jeffrey Eugenides
Waiting for Godot by Samuel Beckett
Walden by Henry David Thoreau
Walt Disney’s Bambi by Felix Salten
War and Peace by Leo Tolstoy
We Owe You Nothing – Punk Planet: The Collected Interviews edited by Daniel Sinker
What Colour is Your Parachute? 2005 by Richard Nelson Bolles
What Happened to Baby Jane by Henry Farrell
When the Emperor Was Divine by Julie Otsuka
Who Moved My Cheese? Spencer Johnson
Who’s Afraid of Virginia Woolf by Edward Albee
Wicked: The Life and Times of the Wicked Witch of the West by Gregory Maguire
The Wizard of Oz by Frank L. Baum
Wuthering Heights by Emily Brontë
The Yearling by Marjorie Kinnan Rawlings
The Year of Magical Thinking by Joan Didion
1984 by George Orwell
A Confederacy of Dunces by John Kennedy Toole
The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn by Mark Twain
Alice in Wonderland by Lewis Carroll
The Amazing Adventures of Kavalier & Clay by Michael Chabon
An American Tragedy by Theodore Dreiser
Angela’s Ashes by Frank McCourt
Anna Karenina by Leo Tolstoy
Anne Frank: The Diary of a Young Girl by Anne Frank
Archidamian War by Donald Kagan
The Art of Fiction by Henry James
The Art of War by Sun Tzu
As I Lay Dying by William Faulkner
Atonement by Ian McEwan
Autobiography of a Face by Lucy Grealy
The Awakening by Kate Chopin
Babe by Dick King-Smith
Backlash: The Undeclared War Against American Women by Susan Faludi
Balzac and the Little Chinese Seamstress by Dai Sijie
Bel Canto by Ann Patchett
The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath
Beloved by Toni Morrison
Beowulf: A New Verse Translation by Seamus Heaney
The Bhagava Gita
The Bielski Brothers: The True Story of Three Men Who Defied the Nazis, Built a Village in the Forest, and Saved 1,200 Jews by Peter Duffy
Bitch in Praise of Difficult Women by Elizabeth Wurtzel
A Bolt from the Blue and Other Essays by Mary McCarthy
Brave New World by Aldous Huxley
Brick Lane by Monica Ali
Bridgadoon by Alan Jay Lerner
Candide by Voltaire
The Canterbury Tales by Chaucer
Carrie by Stephen King
Catch-22 by Joseph Heller
The Catcher in the Rye by J. D. Salinger
Charlotte’s Web by E. B. White
The Children’s Hour by Lillian Hellman
Christine by Stephen King
A Christmas Carol by Charles Dickens
A Clockwork Orange by Anthony Burgess
The Code of the Woosters by P.G. Wodehouse
The Collected Short Stories by Eudora Welty The Collected Stories of Eudora Welty by Eudora Welty
A Comedy of Errors by William Shakespeare
Complete Novels by Dawn Powell
The Complete Poems by Anne Sexton
Complete Stories by Dorothy Parker
A Confederacy of Dunces by John Kennedy Toole
The Count of Monte Cristo by Alexandre Dumas
Cousin Bette by Honoré de Balzac
Crime and Punishment by Fyodor Dostoevsky
The Crimson Petal and the White by Michel Faber
The Crucible by Arthur Miller Cujo by Stephen King
The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time by Mark Haddon
Daughter of Fortune by Isabel Allende
David and Lisa by Dr Theodore Issac Rubin M.D
David Copperfield by Charles Dickens
The Da Vinci Code by Dan Brown
Dead Souls by Nikolai Gogol
Demons by Fyodor Dostoyevsky
Death of a Salesman by Arthur Miller
Deenie by Judy Blume
The Devil in the White City: Murder, Magic, and Madness at the Fair that Changed America by Erik Larson
The Dirt: Confessions of the World’s Most Notorious Rock Band by Tommy Lee, Vince Neil, Mick Mars and Nikki Sixx
The Divine Comedy by Dante
The Divine Secrets of the Ya-Ya Sisterhood by Rebecca Wells
Don Quixote by Cervantes
Driving Miss Daisy by Alfred Uhrv
Dr. Jekyll & Mr. Hyde by Robert Louis Stevenson
Edgar Allan Poe: Complete Tales & Poems by Edgar Allan Poe
Eleanor Roosevelt by Blanche Wiesen Cook
The Electric Kool-Aid Acid Test by Tom Wolfe
Ella Minnow Pea: A Novel in Letters by Mark Dunn
Eloise by Kay Thompson
Emily the Strange by Roger Reger
Emma by Jane Austen
Empire Falls by Richard Russo
Encyclopedia Brown: Boy Detective by Donald J. Sobol
Ethan Frome by Edith Wharton
Ethics by Spinoza
Europe through the Back Door, 2003 by Rick Steves
Eva Luna by Isabel Allende
Everything Is Illuminated by Jonathan Safran Foer
Extravagance by Gary Krist
Fahrenheit 451 by Ray Bradbury
Fahrenheit 9/11 by Michael Moore
The Fall of the Athenian Empire by Donald Kagan
Fat Land: How Americans Became the Fattest People in the World by Greg Critser
Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas by Hunter S. Thompson
The Fellowship of the Ring: Book 1 of The Lord of the Ring by J. R. R. Tolkien
Fiddler on the Roof by Joseph Stein
The Five People You Meet in Heaven by Mitch Albom
Finnegan’s Wake by James Joyce Fletch by Gregory McDonald
Flowers for Algernon by Daniel Keyes
The Fortress of Solitude by Jonathan Lethem
The Fountainhead by Ayn Rand
Frankenstein by Mary Shelley
Franny and Zooey by J. D. Salinger
Freaky Friday by Mary Rodgers
Galapagos by Kurt Vonnegut
Gender Trouble by Judith Butler
George W. Bushism: The Slate Book of the Accidental Wit and Wisdom of our 43rd President by Jacob Weisberg
Gidget by Fredrick Kohner
Girl, Interrupted by Susanna Kaysen
The Gnostic Gospels by Elaine Pagels
The Godfather: Book 1 by Mario Puzo
The God of Small Things by Arundhati Roy
Goldilocks and the Three Bears by Alvin Granowsky
Gone with the Wind by Margaret Mitchell
The Good Soldier by Ford Madox Ford
The Gospel According to Judy Bloom
The Graduate by Charles Webb
The Grapes of Wrath by John Steinbeck
The Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald
Great Expectations by Charles Dickens
The Group by Mary McCarthy
Hamlet by William Shakespeare
Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire by J. K. Rowling
Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone by J. K. Rowling
A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius by Dave Eggers
Heart of Darkness by Joseph Conrad
Helter Skelter: The True Story of the Manson Murders by Vincent Bugliosi and Curt Gentry
Henry IV, part I by William Shakespeare
Henry IV, part II by William Shakespeare
Henry V by William Shakespeare
High Fidelity by Nick Hornby
The History of the Decline and Fall of the Roman Empire by Edward Gibbon
Holidays on Ice: Stories by David Sedaris
The Holy Barbarians by Lawrence Lipton
House of Sand and Fog by Andre Dubus III
The House of the Spirits by Isabel Allende
How to Breathe Underwater by Julie Orringer
How the Grinch Stole Christmas by Dr. Seuss
How the Light Gets in by M. J. Hyland
Howl by Allen Gingsburg
The Hunchback of Notre Dame by Victor Hugo
The Iliad by Homer
I’m with the Band by Pamela des Barres
In Cold Blood by Truman Capote
Inferno by Dante
Inherit the Wind by Jerome Lawrence and Robert E. Lee
Iron Weed by William J. Kennedy
It Takes a Village by Hillary Clinton
Jane Eyre by Charlotte Brontë
The Joy Luck Club by Amy Tan
Julius Caesar by William Shakespeare
The Jumping Frog by Mark Twain
The Jungle by Upton Sinclair
Just a Couple of Days by Tony Vigorito
The Kitchen Boy: A Novel of the Last Tsar by Robert Alexander
Kitchen Confidential: Adventures in the Culinary Underbelly by Anthony Bourdain
The Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini
Lady Chatterleys’ Lover by D. H. Lawrence
The Last Empire: Essays 1992-2000 by Gore Vidal
Leaves of Grass by Walt Whitman
The Legend of Bagger Vance by Steven Pressfield
Less Than Zero by Bret Easton Ellis
Letters to a Young Poet by Rainer Maria Rilke
Lies and the Lying Liars Who Tell Them by Al Franken
Life of Pi by Yann Martel
Little Dorrit by Charles Dickens
The Little Locksmith by Katharine Butler Hathaway
The Little Match Girl by Hans Christian Andersen
Little Women by Louisa May Alcott
Living History by Hillary Rodham Clinton
Lord of the Flies by William Golding
The Lottery: And Other Stories by Shirley Jackson
The Lovely Bones by Alice Sebold
The Love Story by Erich Segal
Macbeth by William Shakespeare
Madame Bovary by Gustave Flaubert
The Manticore by Robertson Davies
Marathon Man by William Goldman
The Master and Margarita by Mikhail Bulgakov
Memoirs of a Dutiful Daughter by Simone de Beauvoir
Memoirs of General W. T. Sherman by William Tecumseh Sherman
Me Talk Pretty One Day by David Sedaris
The Meaning of Consuelo by Judith Ortiz Cofer Mencken’s Chrestomathy by H. R. Mencken
The Merry Wives of Windsor by William Shakespeare
The Metamorphosis by Franz Kafka
Middlesex by Jeffrey Eugenides
The Miracle Worker by William Gibson
Moby Dick by Herman Melville
The Mojo Collection: The Ultimate Music Companion by Jim Irvin
Moliere: A Biography by Hobart Chatfield Taylor
A Monetary History of the United States by Milton Friedman
Monsieur Proust by Celeste Albaret
A Month Of Sundays: Searching For The Spirit And My Sister by Julie Mars
A Moveable Feast by Ernest Hemingway
Mrs. Dalloway by Virginia Woolf
Mutiny on the Bounty by Charles Nordhoff and James Norman Hall
My Lai 4: A Report on the Massacre and Its Aftermath by Seymour M. Hersh
My Life as Author and Editor by H. R. Mencken
My Life in Orange: Growing Up with the Guru by Tim Guest
Myra Waldo’s Travel and Motoring Guide to Europe, 1978 by Myra Waldo
My Sister’s Keeper by Jodi Picoult
The Naked and the Dead by Norman Mailer
The Name of the Rose by Umberto Eco
The Namesake by Jhumpa Lahiri
The Nanny Diaries by Emma McLaughlin
Nervous System: Or, Losing My Mind in Literature by Jan Lars Jensen
New Poems of Emily Dickinson by Emily Dickinson
The New Way Things Work by David Macaulay
Nickel and Dimed by Barbara Ehrenreich
Night by Elie Wiesel
Northanger Abbey by Jane Austen
The Norton Anthology of Theory and Criticism by William E. Cain, Laurie A. Finke, Barbara E. Johnson, John P. McGowan
Novels 1930-1942: Dance Night/Come Back to Sorrento, Turn, Magic Wheel/Angels on Toast/A Time to be Born by Dawn Powell
Notes of a Dirty Old Man by Charles Bukowski
Of Mice and Men by John Steinbeck
Old School by Tobias Wolff
On the Road by Jack Kerouac
One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest by Ken Kesey
One Hundred Years of Solitude by Gabriel Garcia Marquez
The Opposite of Fate: Memories of a Writing Life by Amy Tan
Oracle Night by Paul Auster
Oryx and Crake by Margaret Atwood
Othello by Shakespeare
Our Mutual Friend by Charles Dickens
The Outbreak of the Peloponnesian War by Donald Kagan
Out of Africa by Isac Dineson
The Outsiders by S. E. Hinton
A Passage to India by E.M. Forster
The Peace of Nicias and the Sicilian Expedition by Donald Kagan
The Perks of Being a Wallflower by Stephen Chbosky
Peyton Place by Grace Metalious
The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde
Pigs at the Trough by Arianna Huffington
Pinocchio by Carlo Collodi
Please Kill Me: The Uncensored Oral History of Punk Legs McNeil and Gillian McCain
The Polysyllabic Spree by Nick Hornby
The Portable Dorothy Parker by Dorothy Parker
The Portable Nietzche by Fredrich Nietzche
The Price of Loyalty: George W. Bush, the White House, and the Education of Paul O’Neill by Ron Suskind
Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen
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Pushkin: A Biography by T. J. Binyon
Pygmalion by George Bernard Shaw
Quattrocento by James Mckean
A Quiet Storm by Rachel Howzell Hall
Rapunzel by Grimm Brothers
The Raven by Edgar Allan Poe
The Razor’s Edge by W. Somerset Maugham
Reading Lolita in Tehran: A Memoir in Books by Azar Nafisi
Rebecca by Daphne du Maurier
Rebecca of Sunnybrook Farm by Kate Douglas Wiggin
The Red Tent by Anita Diamant
Rescuing Patty Hearst: Memories From a Decade Gone Mad by Virginia Holman
The Return of the King: The Lord of the Rings Book 3 by J. R. R. Tolkien
R Is for Ricochet by Sue Grafton Rita Hayworth by Stephen King
Robert’s Rules of Order by Henry Robert
Roman Holiday by Edith Wharton
Romeo and Juliet by William Shakespeare
A Room of One’s Own by Virginia Woolf
A Room with a View by E. M. Forster
Rosemary’s Baby by Ira Levin
Sacred Time by Ursula Hegi
Sanctuary by William Faulkner
Savage Beauty: The Life of Edna St. Vincent Millay by Nancy Milford
Say Goodbye to Daisy Miller by Henry James
The Scarecrow of Oz by Frank L. Baum
The Scarlet Letter by Nathaniel Hawthorne
Seabiscuit: An American Legend by Laura Hillenbrand
The Second Sex by Simone de Beauvoir
The Secret Life of Bees by Sue Monk Kidd
Secrets of the Flesh: A Life of Colette by Judith Thurman
Selected Hotels of Europe Selected Letters of Dawn Powell: 1913-1965 by Dawn Powell
Sense and Sensibility by Jane Austen
A Separate Peace by John Knowles
Several Biographies of Winston Churchill
Sexus by Henry Miller
The Shadow of the Wind by Carlos Ruiz Zafon
Shane by Jack Shaefer
The Shining by Stephen King
Siddhartha by Hermann Hesse
S Is for Silence by Sue Grafton
Slaughter-house Five by Kurt Vonnegut
Small Island by Andrea Levy
Snows of Kilimanjaro by Ernest Hemingway
Snow White and Rose Red by Grimm Brothers
Social Origins of Dictatorship and Democracy: Lord and Peasant in the Making of the Modern World by Barrington Moore
The Song of Names by Norman Lebrecht
Song of the Simple Truth: The Complete Poems of Julia de Burgos by Julia de Burgos
The Song Reader by Lisa Tucker
Songbook by Nick Hornby
The Sonnets by William Shakespeare
Sonnets from the Portuegese by Elizabeth Barrett Browning
Sophie’s Choice by William Styron
The Sound and the Fury by William Faulkner
Speak, Memory by Vladimir Nabokov
Stiff: The Curious Lives of Human Cadavers by Mary Roach
The Story of My Life by Helen Keller
A Streetcar Named Desire by Tennessee Williams
Stuart Little by E. B. White
Sun Also Rises by Ernest Hemingway
Swann’s Way by Marcel Proust
Swimming with Giants: My Encounters with Whales, Dolphins and Seals by Anne Collett
Sybil by Flora Rheta Schreiber
A Tale of Two Cities by Charles Dickens
Tender Is The Night by F. Scott Fitzgerald
Term of Endearment by Larry McMurtry
Time and Again by Jack Finney
The Time Traveler’s Wife by Audrey Niffenegger
To Have and Have Not by Ernest Hemingway
To Kill a Mockingbird by Harper Lee
The Tragedy of Richard III by William Shakespeare
A Tree Grows in Brooklyn by Betty Smith
The Trial by Franz Kafka
The True and Outstanding Adventures of the Hunt Sisters by Elisabeth Robinson
Truth & Beauty: A Friendship by Ann Patchett
Tuesdays with Morrie by Mitch Albom
Ulysses by James Joyce
The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath 1950-1962 by Sylvia Plath
Uncle Tom’s Cabin by Harriet Beecher Stowe
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Valley of the Dolls by Jacqueline Susann
The Vanishing Newspaper by Philip Meyers
Vanity Fair by William Makepeace Thackeray
Velvet Underground’s The Velvet Underground and Nico (Thirty Three and a Third series) by Joe Harvard
The Virgin Suicides by Jeffrey Eugenides
Waiting for Godot by Samuel Beckett
Walden by Henry David Thoreau
Walt Disney’s Bambi by Felix Salten
War and Peace by Leo Tolstoy
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Wuthering Heights by Emily Brontë
The Yearling by Marjorie Kinnan Rawlings
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2012-06-01
Give Me Words
Give me words.
Give me enough words to explain how this feels. How my senses become uncontrollable. My eyes force themselves to look away when it’s the one thing I’d never imagine doing.
My ears dare to keep shut and avoid reality. What is worse than a goodbye? Every touch is a reminder that although we lean closer, we fall further apart.
Feelings couldn’t possibly describe the skipped beats of my heart, the butterflies in my stomach, the stars in my eyes… the safety, the comfort, the serene beauty… what I’m feeling could never be felt for anyone else.
You have a way of getting my attention through even the smallest gestures. Someone would say the actions are small and meaningless, but even in the smallest of actions lies the greatest of intentions. No amount of words could be enough, and none are truly needed. What I feel for you is much more than words could ever begin to express.
Give me words to allow me to say this and truly mean it.
Give me words to silence the beats of my heart out of rhythm.
Give me words to still the butterflies’ wings.
Give me words to reflect the stars in your eyes.
Give me words to say that I love you more than you could understand, because those words would never be enough.
In return, I could give you something more substantial than words.
My heart, my soul, my unmasked and unsheltered being…
My innocent, trusting smile and this, as a promise:
if you could give me the words, I could give you reason to believe there aren’t enough to explain this.
2012-05-19
The "S" Word (three)
Why should I be the one to surrender myself?
Better question: why shouldn't you?
Sometimes I wonder just what I got myself into...
Why did I trust you so much?
I knew we'd end up here. And all it would take for us to move on is one small favour.
Relatively small, that is, because each person must pay a price for their actions.
2012-05-18
Different Angles
Sometimes it pays to see life differently.
Everyone will quote famous sayings about how life is too short not to live it to the fullest.
Does that really capture the essence of a person's life?
Maybe my way of living differed from yours, that's to be expected... but that doesn't make it wrong.
You lived for you, and that was what made you the kind of person you'll always be remembered as.
I didn't know you all that well, but over the past couple of years, I learned a lot. There's no doubt about it, you saw life in a way that not many other people could. You always knew just what to say to make life seem less intense. Thanks for your words of wisdom, for all you've done for my friends, and for the great life you lived... Maybe one day we'll all learn to see life the way you did. Rest in peace Brandon.
I didn't know you all that well, but over the past couple of years, I learned a lot. There's no doubt about it, you saw life in a way that not many other people could. You always knew just what to say to make life seem less intense. Thanks for your words of wisdom, for all you've done for my friends, and for the great life you lived... Maybe one day we'll all learn to see life the way you did. Rest in peace Brandon.
2012-04-18
Waterworks
Construction workers are not dangerous;
their tools are solely to blame,
the jackhammer was indeed the culprit
and his drill broke through the concrete
making contact with a pipe
that lay deep beneath.
And in an instant, she sprung a leak,
as each splash of water drips
slowly down the concrete tiles
the sewer becomes filled,
choked up by all the mess inside.
Puddles form in masses on the road
and in no time, a little leak
became a flood, the street left in ruins
and the pipe, she could never be mended -
cut too deep - and the jackhammer,
he was to blame, for not drilling carefully.
[written March 2010]
Something I said to someone who always said this to me...
"You'll be okay".
Wherever you are, wherever you'll be.
That's something I'll never forget.
[E] Final Exams: W2012
Exams are pretty good, I guess.
Here's the rundown.
POL1502 - Politique et mondialisation [x]
ENG1120 - Prose Fiction [x]
ECO1102 - Intro to Macroeconomics [x]
FRA1720 - Littérature et plaisir de l'écriture [x]
POL1101 - Intro to Political Science [x]
FLS2581 - Capacités réceptives [x]
Completed first year!
Details to follow :)
[T] Honesty
Why do you THINK I don’t care?
Everyone pushed me aside for all the shit they wanted.. so if you’re all happy, you can move along. I don’t care about what you have to say anymore. Everything I say calls for a red flag - didn’t know I’d be censored. I think that’s cool though. Everyone is free to say and do whatever they want, but as soon as I open my mouth, people are ready to start a fight.
Here’s the deal though - I’m going to be as honest with you as with anyone else, I’m not gonna pretend everything’s okay if it’s not. It’s pretty simple - there is a fine line between being blunt and being a bitch - I understand that. But no one paid me any mind when I was simply being blunt, so sorry I’m not sorry it turned out this way.
2012-03-06
2012-03-05
[14]
If only I had known...
It doesn't matter how many people appreciate something you say or do. All that matters it makes you feel at the end of the day.
It doesn't matter how many people appreciate something you say or do. All that matters it makes you feel at the end of the day.
2012-02-27
[13]
If only I had known...
This may not have been what I wanted originally. I guess I wasn't prepared for what was about to happen.
(lucky number thirteen?)
This may not have been what I wanted originally. I guess I wasn't prepared for what was about to happen.
(lucky number thirteen?)
2012-02-16
[T] I don't understand you at all.
Disrespect me, fine.
You did it all the time - I'm used to it.
Disrespect anyone or anything I love and there's no forgiveness. AT ALL.
I don't think you have the right to even SPEAK about this; rude and insulting in manner, and absolutely uncalled for.
You're just ridiculous.
You did it all the time - I'm used to it.
Disrespect anyone or anything I love and there's no forgiveness. AT ALL.
I don't think you have the right to even SPEAK about this; rude and insulting in manner, and absolutely uncalled for.
You're just ridiculous.
2012-01-30
[T] Bass Ackwards
You were under-appreciated.
Really, you were.
I treated you like garbage.
You resented me for a long time. It scared me a little. I know I hurt you, and I didn't want to do that.
For some reason though, you were so forgiving. After everything.
I appreciate that a lot. I appreciate you.
You have all the right to resent me forever. And you don't.
You deserve to hate me (not only you, many others as well). But you don't.
I find it amazing how you're above all of that, considering I probably hurt you more than I have other people... and yet, someone can hold a few words over my head. Words that they asked to hear.
If you want to hate me, I will give you a real reason. Stop playing childish games and grow up. Say what you want about me and I'd totally respect it. As long as it comes straight from your mouth and into my ears. This hearsay bullshit isn't even funny anymore, it's just cowardly.
If you THINK you heard something from me, why don't you ask me?
Oh, wait. But why do that? That makes far too much sense.
Wanna know what I think? No? Good. You're probably better off that way. I really don't want to wipe your tears off my shoes.
Really, you were.
I treated you like garbage.
You resented me for a long time. It scared me a little. I know I hurt you, and I didn't want to do that.
For some reason though, you were so forgiving. After everything.
I appreciate that a lot. I appreciate you.
You have all the right to resent me forever. And you don't.
You deserve to hate me (not only you, many others as well). But you don't.
I find it amazing how you're above all of that, considering I probably hurt you more than I have other people... and yet, someone can hold a few words over my head. Words that they asked to hear.
If you want to hate me, I will give you a real reason. Stop playing childish games and grow up. Say what you want about me and I'd totally respect it. As long as it comes straight from your mouth and into my ears. This hearsay bullshit isn't even funny anymore, it's just cowardly.
If you THINK you heard something from me, why don't you ask me?
Oh, wait. But why do that? That makes far too much sense.
Wanna know what I think? No? Good. You're probably better off that way. I really don't want to wipe your tears off my shoes.
The "S" Word (two)
Something tells me this is going to be difficult.
You asked for it.
You said that it would make you happy.
All I had to do was fulfill this simple request.
So why should I give you the satisfaction?
All you wanted was for me to give in.
You asked for it.
You said that it would make you happy.
All I had to do was fulfill this simple request.
So why should I give you the satisfaction?
All you wanted was for me to give in.
[12]
If only I had known...
You'd treat me so much better than I deserve, and I wouldn't know how to deal with that.
You'd treat me so much better than I deserve, and I wouldn't know how to deal with that.
2012-01-29
VI
Sensei says:
"Your homework... watch Risky Business."
In an attempt to get us to learn this...
Every now and then, saying "What the Fuck", brings freedom. Freedom brings opportunity, opportunity makes your future.
"Your homework... watch Risky Business."
In an attempt to get us to learn this...
Every now and then, saying "What the Fuck", brings freedom. Freedom brings opportunity, opportunity makes your future.
2012-01-24
[T] Because this is what I should have said...
You care too much about me.
I don't think I've ever been told I don't care enough - but I was taken by surprise to hear you say such a thing. I care too much about you? You said that as if you don't know a thing about me. As if you didn't know how I felt about you. As if you didn't care at all.
That's fine. You hurt me. I hurt you. You moved on. And now I can finally do the same. I spent far too long feeling like this was my fault. Like I caused this. I don't think I'd ever put myself through half the shit I did for you again - and I mean exactly that.
How many times have I saved your ass? Can you simply count those on your fingers? How many times have I been there for you, through all the bullshit other people came up with.. through all the shit people put you through? Can you simply count those on your fingers? How many times have I gone out of my way to make sure you were okay? Can you simply count those on your fingers?
If you can, I guess there's no point in asking - but if you can't, please, just tell me what it was that I did to make you feel like this.. what drew this line of hostility and hatred between us.. what did it? And why did I have to suffer for it?
Truth is, until now, I was always afraid of losing you. I cared about you so much, too much, in your eyes. I can't fight for our friendship anymore. I can't fight for you, and live with losing myself. I lost so much of me trying to be a better friend for you. And clearly I wasn't good enough for you, so now I need to focus on me.
I'll always love you; you mean the world to me. But right now, I'm over it.. the pain, the tears, the fights, the bullshit... all of it. And I'm over you too.
I don't think I've ever been told I don't care enough - but I was taken by surprise to hear you say such a thing. I care too much about you? You said that as if you don't know a thing about me. As if you didn't know how I felt about you. As if you didn't care at all.
That's fine. You hurt me. I hurt you. You moved on. And now I can finally do the same. I spent far too long feeling like this was my fault. Like I caused this. I don't think I'd ever put myself through half the shit I did for you again - and I mean exactly that.
How many times have I saved your ass? Can you simply count those on your fingers? How many times have I been there for you, through all the bullshit other people came up with.. through all the shit people put you through? Can you simply count those on your fingers? How many times have I gone out of my way to make sure you were okay? Can you simply count those on your fingers?
If you can, I guess there's no point in asking - but if you can't, please, just tell me what it was that I did to make you feel like this.. what drew this line of hostility and hatred between us.. what did it? And why did I have to suffer for it?
Truth is, until now, I was always afraid of losing you. I cared about you so much, too much, in your eyes. I can't fight for our friendship anymore. I can't fight for you, and live with losing myself. I lost so much of me trying to be a better friend for you. And clearly I wasn't good enough for you, so now I need to focus on me.
I'll always love you; you mean the world to me. But right now, I'm over it.. the pain, the tears, the fights, the bullshit... all of it. And I'm over you too.
2012-01-08
The "S" Word (one)
Hard to say, harder to talk about. A common thought and a common occurrence. But why?
Because people can't control their thoughts, and they struggle with trying to control their actions.
One word could do so much damage if the one who hears it misinterprets just what they heard. What do you think I'm talking about?
Because people can't control their thoughts, and they struggle with trying to control their actions.
One word could do so much damage if the one who hears it misinterprets just what they heard. What do you think I'm talking about?
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