[T] Because this is what I should have said...

You care too much about me.

I don't think I've ever been told I don't care enough - but I was taken by surprise to hear you say such a thing. I care too much about you? You said that as if you don't know a thing about me. As if you didn't know how I felt about you. As if you didn't care at all.

That's fine. You hurt me. I hurt you. You moved on. And now I can finally do the same. I spent far too long feeling like this was my fault. Like I caused this. I don't think I'd ever put myself through half the shit I did for you again - and I mean exactly that.

How many times have I saved your ass? Can you simply count those on your fingers? How many times have I been there for you, through all the bullshit other people came up with.. through all the shit people put you through? Can you simply count those on your fingers? How many times have I gone out of my way to make sure you were okay? Can you simply count those on your fingers?

If you can, I guess there's no point in asking - but if you can't, please, just tell me what it was that I did to make you feel like this.. what drew this line of hostility and hatred between us.. what did it? And why did I have to suffer for it?

Truth is, until now, I was always afraid of losing you. I cared about you so much, too much, in your eyes. I can't fight for our friendship anymore. I can't fight for you, and live with losing myself. I lost so much of me trying to be a better friend for you. And clearly I wasn't good enough for you, so now I need to focus on me.

I'll always love you; you mean the world to me. But right now, I'm over it.. the pain, the tears, the fights, the bullshit... all of it. And I'm over you too.